Something Beautiful

... at the zoo today enjoying the pretty weather. While there, Hunter and Ashton "petted"( or got to pat) a goat on the head. And Ashton said, "oh, he is beautiful." I chuckled to myself and then took a picture of what captured Ashton's definition of beautiful.


Then I thought about how Hunter uses the word beautiful. I immediately thought of the song "Something Beautiful" by Need to Breath. He exchanges the word Something with the word "Mommy's." Ok, fine, I actually sang the song with the words " oh oh oh oh oh oh oh mommy's beautiful" in it first but he picked up on it really quick (ha ha ha.) Regardless, he truly believes I am beautiful. He tells me All The Time and now he sings this song often (sorry if you think it is sacra-religious to do this to Christian songs- we like to think that God has a good sense of humor over silly things like this.)

I then I started thinking of what my definition of beautiful was.



Then it hit me that I was thinking of the outside only. Would I still think of the leopard's beauty as it stalks and kills its prey? I doubt I would be focused as much on his beauty as I would be the kill.

Then I started thinking about God's definition of beauty. And realize how that He sees deep. He sees me when I am not beautiful... when I let one slip under my breath when I stub my toe, when I almost or I do lose my cool with the boys, when I choose that TV program instead of His Word.

Does God see true beauty in me? Does He say, "she is beautiful!" Does the world see God's beauty in me? Or does my sin get in the way?

As we were leaving the zoo, the last animal is the owl. It strikes me every time that I leave that the owl is the final animal. Why the owl?


Today as we were leaving and I was thinking of how I want to be beautiful to God, I see the owl and He (God not the owl) whispers wisdom. WISDOM. I get so caught up wanting beauty that I miss wanting wisdom. To crave wisdom like Solomon. To be wise like the owl now that is something that I bet God could say "now that is something beautiful."

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In other news. Ashton wasnt feeling good yesterday. He actually fell asleep watching his movie.

I finally got my van washed and Hunt and Shep helped. It was Shep's first time to help and he was adorable. And Hunter loves to wash a car and is getting quite good. Hopefully my car washing days will start to diminish in the near future... that is a benefit to having kids, right?



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Oh, by the way, you may see more journally type post that deal a bit with my walk with Christ. I have tried to journal before and well, my commitment wasn't so great. I think after like 6 or 7 attempts, the longest I made it was like to 2 months. So along with my journaly stuff for the boys, I am going to try and lace in what God is speaking to me at the moment so I can keep track of it.